i didn't treat you like a fool. i SWEAR!! if you wanna thinks that. then fine. never mind. i got nothing to said. is you say der. real friends wont mind their bad points. well. you mind! ya! you dont own me. and you dont have to wait for me. even when you're at home. im not you! that can go out every night as you want! i have to fu chu. then i can go out at night. if i tell you earlier. it's also same. you still will get angry. i didn't say, and never think that you keep quiet means you dont mind. i know you're angry! but what can i do? you think im you meh? go out as you wish. if i treat you like a fool. i might as well let you wait long long. then suddenly tell you i dont wanna go ler. i always do that to my friends last time! but did i do that to you mah? no matter what. i still go. is go amk leis. not yishun leis. you know how hard for me to go out. you dont know! cause you're not me! you said before dont mind whether got me this friend or not. you got your sister. then never mind.. if you want might as well treat it as you never know me..
is you are the one who wanna listen to real thing. and i tell you. yet you wanna get angry. mistook what i mean. you want me explain. but did you listen? i say what. you talk back. you dont even give me the chances to tell you. then why you still ask me? is you say der. true friends will only say real things.. i say ler. is you cannot accept. who treat you good. who are not. you ownself know lah. you always show me attitude. i know that's you. i also didn't like what. i also didn say anything. i ren.. doesn't mean i dont mind too! i ren cause you're my best friend!!! iya.. whatever lah.. no matter what im still that fucked up to you! from today onwards. you wanna meet me or not. is up to you.. sometimes i just feel like im a dog to you...
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even my own dad i cannot trust. who can i trust? ah ma said. only family can be trusted! it's all lies! who's dad will throw his own daughter some where so far? and leave without calling her. when i called. he even ask me go back my own. when i dont even know how to.. and he really comes home. and leave me there!! who's dad will do that?! if it's jiejie. will you throw her some where far and ask her go back her own? you wont!! if it's not buddy. i wont be back home so fast. and HE said 19 to 20 years old ler. still ( shen shou yao qian).. YA! im like that der! i love to do that! only your elder daughter, your precious son wont! me? im always like a piece of shit to ni men! might as well dont born me out! said what, i gt money always take cab take cab. is buddy pay for me der leis! if not! will i be at home NOW?! you only rem korkor and jiejie got give mommy money. i DONT HAVE !!! once also dont have.. im the most selfish one! ya! I AM! happy?!?! dont know why you will born out someone like me! so selfish! when you dont have money still lend you. and no return! i never ask for it also! you in hospital twice. everyday i also go. everyday leis. your son, your daughter? did they? first is only me, ah boy and mommy. second time. i heard that. im the first one faster rush down. and pei you wait for 8 hours. for fuck? i dont know why i do all this fucked-up things! no matter how hard i try to please ni men!
YOU ALL JUST THINK THAT IM JUST SO FUCKED-UP!!!! ALL OF YOU!!!
then just let it be.. might as well LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fennies NG 
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