#31 . May . Sunday~


just done with my blogskin. all THANKS to YueShi again! haha.. everything she help me do again.. heh.. cause i dont know how to. thanks lot babe! :D I'm busy editing my photos.. :D just a photo like this. i spend so much time! imagine how long i didn't do computer stuff ler.. hah..

chatting with Veron sis now..



I MISS YOU SO MUCH SIS!
so long didn't meet her ler.. it's been YEARS lor sis.. you know you know??
haha.. meet me soon eh! miss you! love love* :D



blog again..
tong tong wake up ler.. I'm gonna go zou "bao mu" ler..
BYES~

cheers,

fennies ' BQ wifey

#30. May. Saturday~

stay at home whole day~

doing house work. vacuum floor, moop floor, change fish water, wash kitchen floor and bath for bambi... so TIRED lar!! very long didn't do all this ler.. :x
chatting with sister (lynnies) now..

she's said she meeting me on coming Saturday.. hah! i miss her so much! since when we last meet up? must be damn long ler uh! hah! :D

To Lynnies sister:
thanks uh sis. i know what i should do now.. thanks for being there for me! :D
i feel much much better ler! thanks! :) whenever i told you about my stuff. you always will give me advice. from last time till now. you're still the one who know me best uh! :D thanks sis! see you real real soon! coming Saturday! :D Love you! SMUACKS*

Tag replied -->
Liting: darling, you still have me. I will be your listening ear. (: I will text you when I topup my card. cheer up babe! I always be there for you my dear, (:
To Liting Darling:
darling,, thanks so much! i know you are here for me! :D and i HAVE you always right? hehe.. love you much darling!! you're the best nor! :D i'll be fine der. no worry ok? heh.. ok.. top up ler rem text me ohs! waiting for your msg uh! :D and im waiting for you to meet me! ;) LOVE YOU MUCH! SMUACKS**

# 29 . May. Friday~

nothing much to say about today....
P.S: I don't wanna to be like a DOG anymore!
being a dog is so xinku.. Bambi Boy, i promise i'll dotes you, just like 5 years ago.. ;)
Hahahas! :D

cheers,
fennies ' BQ wifey

I DIDN'T TREAT YOU LIKE A FOOL!!!

i didn't treat you like a fool. i SWEAR!! if you wanna thinks that. then fine. never mind. i got nothing to said. is you say der. real friends wont mind their bad points. well. you mind! ya! you dont own me. and you dont have to wait for me. even when you're at home. im not you! that can go out every night as you want! i have to fu chu. then i can go out at night. if i tell you earlier. it's also same. you still will get angry. i didn't say, and never think that you keep quiet means you dont mind. i know you're angry! but what can i do? you think im you meh? go out as you wish. if i treat you like a fool. i might as well let you wait long long. then suddenly tell you i dont wanna go ler. i always do that to my friends last time! but did i do that to you mah? no matter what. i still go. is go amk leis. not yishun leis. you know how hard for me to go out. you dont know! cause you're not me! you said before dont mind whether got me this friend or not. you got your sister. then never mind.. if you want might as well treat it as you never know me..

is you are the one who wanna listen to real thing. and i tell you. yet you wanna get angry. mistook what i mean. you want me explain. but did you listen? i say what. you talk back. you dont even give me the chances to tell you. then why you still ask me? is you say der. true friends will only say real things.. i say ler. is you cannot accept. who treat you good. who are not. you ownself know lah. you always show me attitude. i know that's you. i also didn't like what. i also didn say anything. i ren.. doesn't mean i dont mind too! i ren cause you're my best friend!!! iya.. whatever lah.. no matter what im still that fucked up to you! from today onwards. you wanna meet me or not. is up to you.. sometimes i just feel like im a dog to you...

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even my own dad i cannot trust. who can i trust? ah ma said. only family can be trusted! it's all lies! who's dad will throw his own daughter some where so far? and leave without calling her. when i called. he even ask me go back my own. when i dont even know how to.. and he really comes home. and leave me there!! who's dad will do that?! if it's jiejie. will you throw her some where far and ask her go back her own? you wont!! if it's not buddy. i wont be back home so fast. and HE said 19 to 20 years old ler. still ( shen shou yao qian).. YA! im like that der! i love to do that! only your elder daughter, your precious son wont! me? im always like a piece of shit to ni men! might as well dont born me out! said what, i gt money always take cab take cab. is buddy pay for me der leis! if not! will i be at home NOW?! you only rem korkor and jiejie got give mommy money. i DONT HAVE !!! once also dont have.. im the most selfish one! ya! I AM! happy?!?! dont know why you will born out someone like me! so selfish! when you dont have money still lend you. and no return! i never ask for it also! you in hospital twice. everyday i also go. everyday leis. your son, your daughter? did they? first is only me, ah boy and mommy. second time. i heard that. im the first one faster rush down. and pei you wait for 8 hours. for fuck? i dont know why i do all this fucked-up things! no matter how hard i try to please ni men!

YOU ALL JUST THINK THAT IM JUST SO FUCKED-UP!!!! ALL OF YOU!!!

then just let it be.. might as well LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STAY OVER NIGHT AT DARLING HOUSE! :D


#27. May. Wednesday~


meeting Darling go woodland CWP. pass our photo for that job. haha. Asusual Darling reach first again. but.. this time i didn't let her wait very long eh.. :x but.. same lar. she still gonna wait for me. cause im slow pork. hah! sorry darling! ;) after that we went LJS eat. I'm Hungry? heh.. later on.. go back "namdai" with darling. =) it's at jurong west. first went to YiJing house. she's very funny uh! keep on entertain her own and Darling. LOL! i told Darling.. ( darling, ni de ren sheng dao lu shan. bu hui ji mo de.. cause you got Yijing to entertain you) LOL! she's agreed with it too! haha! then slack with them.. and stay over night at Darling's house.. :D and that ke ai de darling.. me & YiJing bath hao. dao darling's turns. while waiting for her. the both of us chatting inside her room. my ke ai de darling ownself go use COM after she bath hao!! hah.. so bad lah. left us inside the room!!

till the next day #28. May. Thursday~ . bath everything at darling house. and took train with darling. as she wanna go meet BF. and i headed back home! :D


Darling & me saw a very cute dog today.. i tell darling..

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me: Darling, you see.. so cute leis the dog..
Darling: ya lor. very cute..
me: why it keep on "yao tou" der?
Darling: haha.. skali it eat "yao tou wan"..

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LAUGH!! LOL LOL LOL!!
the dog really keep on yao tou leis. so ke ai lor. somemore darling so funny! :D
all the way.. we keep on thinking about that dog.. cause we mention it again and again,
lo so huh.. hah! :D


Darling:
darling, why ni men call as namdai? means? haha.. :D oh ya.. thanks nerh.. had fun with you girls. especially with you! :D meet you soon! i love you Darling! :D see you real soon! heh!

and buddy.. say meeting me.. call me again later.. no CALLS!!

-,-

Buddy:

wo de BUDDY! when are you meeting me?!


I MISS BABY SO MUCH !! =(

i receive his letter ler. guess what?! I RECEIVE 3 OF HIS LETTER!
wooohoooos! :D
so HAPPY!
goin meet ah ma ler. blog again. BYES! ;)

cheers,

fennies ' His Wifey

UPDATED -
#24 May. Sunday


went K-ing with buddy.. actually wanted to go pub drinking. in the end.. we went to Amk Hub. (Scarlets) for k-ing. LOL. actually meeting buddy around 9pm. but I'm late for 1 hour. so meet her around 10pm. LOL! the room so big uh! just the two of us. hah! awhile later. buddy's friend came. mmm.. i forget his name ler. :x my memories was ( buddy keep telling me. kwang's friend).. So.. i don't rem his name. :x then I'm the only one keep on singing. where's my buddy? she keep on drinking and drinking none stop. we order 2 jug of Tiger beer. and 5 bottle of Heineken. So Much right? hah.. It's ok. buddy can finish it all by her own. LOL! most of it is buddy drink. i didn't drink that much.. i SWEAR! i still rem not even half of it.. after k-ing. till 1.45am. walk around Central.. i still rem.. that buddy! she wants to go park walk walk. OH MY! the staircase.. ARGH! so long way up.. thanks uh buddy! what a nice walk! -,- did enjoy the whole night. but.. not the walk!!


# 25 May . Monday

slack under buddy's blk all the way till 6am plus. waited for bus. actually i wanted to call Dad come drive me home. but.. something happen. early in the morning without having my beauty sleep. all the way took train down to TTSH (hospital). check whether how's my dad.. FUCK that uncle & and his whole fucking family! NBCB! we already report you & your son! you just wait and go in SIT! enjoy your life inside! NBCCB!! Fuck you man!
Dad said: if ah boy(my BF) here how good.
LOL.. i know what he's thinking about. but.. please NO ok!
then inside hospital acc dad till 4pm then we can leave. so long! i haven go home yet! i miss my bed! and then went to amk police station made report. next went HOME! having my mask-ing and beauty sleep..


some pics taken on #24 May

this is all the drinking & food we had.. ;)

Cheers,

fennies ' His wifey

Mmm.. Will Update Soon?
Might be! I'm Lazy uh! :D

I miss Hubby much much eh! (:

hope everythings gonna be fine!

time passes yea? :D

Waiting ~

I LOVE YOU B !!
♥

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Cheers,

fennies ' His Wifey

#23 May . Saturday ~


i woke up damn late today. hah! meeting Darling (LiTing) at CWP. actually is meeting her around 4pm. in the end i delay till 6pm ++ . I'm Sorry darling! I'm very late. she waited for me alone for 1 hours ++ at woodland control station.. Oops ~ :X but.. she didn't scold me. hah! then after that went cwp walk walk for job hunting. LOLS! and .. slack around cwp. actually going to pub tonight. but.. suddenly darling's friends don't want to go ler. and buddy meeting her friend later on. so.. cancel! slack with darling till 10pm ++ .. and headed back home ~
I FEEL LIKE DRINKING TODAY!! hais..

Darling:
meet you again on monday! :D love you*

some pics

(LiTing) My dearest Darling ~

back home!! -,-

I Miss Baby.. hais. i WANT to listen to his voice!! i WANT to see him!! ='(

i miss him So Badly..

Opened letter box again.. well, None of a letter is from him der. hais..

gonna be 4 months i didn't receive his letter ler. which means i didn't receive 6 letters.

when will i be receiving your letter baby? i miss you.. =(

Bi, I LOVE YOU REAL MUCH ♥!

Cheers,

fennies

2nd post of the day. :D

went Amk Hub to meet buddy. :D long long time no see buddy uh. pass her the leopard mirror. she say it's nice. hah! so scare that she don't like uh.. then went movie with buddy. "The Uninvited" LOLS. to me the show. ok lor. or i can just say it's lame! hah. after the show. buddy don't really understand the ending till i explain it to her. hah! walked around Amk Central. then went up to buddy's house. this is the first time i went to her house eh! hahs! her gu jie pass me some masks & some skin care sample.. thanks so much uh! as my face now.. argh!! i feel like dying! buddy's gu jie told me. my condition wasn't jialat as buddy past condition. but.. to me! it's so worst! but. lucky i know buddy uh! hope my face getting better!

slack awhile at her house. then went downstair slack. buddy said she wants to drink. so we went 7 eleven. i bought 1 bottle long island? the taste was like so weird! and buddy bought 2 bottles of E thirty-three. and went back under blk. then buddy suddenly says wanna watch movie with her friend. oh my! it's already 10.20pm ler leis. we chiong to buy "Night To The Museum 2" der tickets. LOLS.. & after that.. slack awhile with buddy. then she pei me wait for bus ler. haha. but waited for awhile. she's late for the show ler. & i ask her to go first..

then after i reach yishun. went to 156 meet ah ma for drink-ing. we chatted alots. and this is the first time i feel so close to ah ma. ;D we chat till around 1.30am. & then went home! so tired! bath everything and i went to bed! :D

buddy:
i will rem what you told me. thanks for being there when i need someone. ;) thanks for telling me what to do. thanks so much for taking care of me when kopi not around. i know im mafan! hah! i love you much! <3>

here some pics..

Who Is She TALKING To?!



ME & BUDDY

cheers,

fennies

MY VOICE IS BACK!

Actually should wake up at 10am today. but i keep on sleep back. rot in bed till 10.45 then i force myself to wake up. so tired. i sleep @ 5am. yawns!
went baby house after i prepared. as usual. waited for yongpeng shushu to get ready. mmm.. it's baby shushu. but i used to call him shushu too. ;) and we went off. first, drive jerel to school. and then me & shushu headed to geylang ave 1? their ("zai dui"). to fetch yeye. and mum mum too. im hungry ! since ytd till today not yet eaten anything. i ate fishball noodles and 1 green tea for my first meal of the day. yongpeng shushu's treat! and he order for me. thank you! :D then next we headed to CPC visit baby and baby's dad. just for that 30min. hais. it's so short.

yup. i didn't get much chances to talk to him. but i did talked to him. ;) cause of he's wonderful DAD! ;) he keep ask baby to talk to me. haha! :D but i so paiseh. yeye and shushu is there.
i always hope that whenever i go visit him, he will say he love me. and everytime he did! :D he always know what i want. ;) and i can feel that he still love me much much. ;D i miss him. miss him real much!
i lied to them and baby. say that im still working. well, i don't know how to tell them that im not working anymore. hais. it's so hard to say. i'll tell baby on next visit i think. or before that he might receive my letter already.. i'm sorry baby. i lied to you! ;(


end here barh. gonna go out meet buddy ler. im late! bye!

cheers,

fennies

# 20 may. Wednesday~
='(

I'm watching this show ("CATCH ME NOW") for the whole day. it's nice. but the ending sucks! it's a sad ending. well, i don't like sad ending. hais.. i tot after finish this show i will feel better. but it wasn't! argh! wondering what happen to me. im just slacking at home for the whole past few days. without stepping out of my house! i even don't have the mood to write letter to baby. no life!! everyday was like sleep, wake up then watch tv. if not use com till midnight, went to bed. can don't even eat today. i don't feel hungry for the whole day. hais. not in the mood to do anything. i just feel like not doing anything!! don't know what's wrong with me! i just feel so down! I WANTED TO CRY SO MUCH!!!!

i really miss baby so much. time passes so slow.. i know. no point keep on thinking. i still got a long way to go.. a very long 1 year plus..... ;'(
tml can go visit him ler. i know i can see him ler. im happy. but "seeing him thrus the tv?" i can't feel that he's around. i know it's better than nothing. but.. wo hao xiang ta! zhen de hen xiang ta!
apart from someone that you love most in your life. you know how's it feels? :'(
i didn't receive his letters for months ler. is not just 1 or 2 month. is more than that. even if it's 1 month. it's kills me! im with him for 1 year 6 month. and we gonna apart for 1 year 8months.
that 20min or 30min to me is never enough. i got so much to tell him. and.. i know that. tml i won't have chances to talk to him. i can only look at him quietly. i have to wait for another 2 weeks.. bi, without you with me. im not alright at all !!!!!

no one know how it's feel..

BABY, i miss you so badly.. you feel it? i didn't dream of you now adays. wo hao xiang ni ! ='(

suddenly, i miss those working days!
miss those laughter, fun, crazyness, chit chatting with my girls..
(" Qinyu, Suatyee, Huishan, Stella, Yueshi & Florence ")
wonder when will we be meeting again?
i miss all of you! <3

;'(

fennies

# 19 may . Tuesday ~

ytd night, meet grace sweetheart. but.. my leg! argh.. so she come my house find me. hahs! then chat alots of things. we chat till the next day morning. imagine how long we chatted. hahs! it's been few years we didn't meet ler. haahs. we still got so much things to say.. :D


AND..
im meeting buddy on thursday after i visit baby! woohoos!! :D
i miss her!! so much things to tell her.. hehs. ;)
some more i still own her a super belated birthday treat. :x
sorry nerh buddy. ;x
i know. it's late for 2 months plus ler. but.. better than don't have marh.
better than just say say marh. hehe ;)
paiseh paiseh .. :X

cheers,

fennies

BORED!!

#18 Monday

so bored at home! my leg injured! no where i can go.. hais.. hope i'll recover before thursday. hais. if not. i die die also want go visit him.. =( every month, everyday. im just waiting for this day. just to see him for that either 20min or 30min. 我真的好想念他!! ;'(

im sad over what you say to me!
我好想BABY! Only he will never say that to me! Only he knows how i feel. i really wish he's with me!!! hais. ;'(


THIS WORLD WILL NEVER BE FAIR!

cheer,

fennies

MY NEW BLOGSKIN IS DONE!
thanks to YUESHI nerh! i love it! spending her time to help me create blogskins nerh! haahs! thank you so much babe! :D so sweet of her. do blogskin for me. even copy everything nicely for me! and even find and put songs for me.. thanks ya!! ;) mafan ni ler nerh!

HUISHAN:
Thanks babe.. you're just so sweet can! post me in your blog. well, it's really nice working with you seriously.. we share our stories together. and you listened to my grand old mother story whenever we work together. and listen to all my complains. Hahs! thanks uhs! :D anyway even if im not opposite you. we still can meet up ya! free msg me alright? :D we'll meet soon! i believe! ;) take great care of yourself ohs! must rem to update your blog often nerh. cause i want read nerh! :D misses* love you! smuacks*


argh!
my com just fucking lag! i don't know what happened to it! ARGH!! oh ya. just now xueyi call me. she ask me i sold her dress arh.. oh my! i really did! i forget that she want!
0ops. im really sorry! i really forgot the dress you want. and i go and sell it! so sorry xueyi! :X i totally forget it. SORRY! and thanks ya nerh. help me ask for job! thank you so much! miss the joy and fun working with you and Qingyu!!! will find one day go bugis find both of you der! im really sorry! think joanne will put the new stock back der.. don't worry alright? cause i did tell her that the stocks sold out ler..


and..
thanks to those who concern bout me!
especially ( Kelly buddy, Yueshi, Huishan, Stella, Florence, Xueyi, Ashley laogong ) well.. Qingyu too. even if you didn't ask. i know xueyi will tell you der lar! haha. and pat sis too! thanks for that short concern. but it's also a concern to me. anyway thank you babes! LOVES*

mmm...
i suddenly miss my 3 sisters! rem we last time name our own name as?
our name is named by veron.
lynette (lynnies)
veronica (ronnies)
cherlyn (cherries)
meifen (fennies)
i miss you girls. when can we meet up again? we always wont meet up together.
always either 2 of us. or 3. when will be 4 of us all together? misses you girls so much!

lastly..
It's to BABY. it's been 7 month ++ without you ler. 2 years ++ relationship, everyday and night you will with me. sleeping just right beside me. but now. it's already 7 months ler. i know it's still long. i still have 1 year 1 month gonna wait for you. i really miss you badly.. when im with you, no matter is when im down or what. got you sayang me. everything seems not important, and i don't even have to bother, worry anything anymore. how i wish you will still here with me.. ;( i didn't receive your letter for months ler.. i miss you.. real much! ;'(

Cheers,

Fennies

Im So Disappointed In You!
seriously, what's true friend?
sometimes im thinking do i need one?
mmm.. think it's not the matters i need or not.
or even if it's i want or don't want.
it's the matters of im afraid to have one i guess.
i said before. i love to chase all my friends away from me.
even if it's the close ones.. ahaa.
well... it's true..
most of them left! heh =)

only left buddy. i guess..
she didn't leave me. from the start when BABY not with me.
till now..
even if we wasn't that close as sister.
it's doesn't matters..
cause she always listen to my problems.
no matter is sad, happy, sweet or angry.
she will lend me a pair of ears..
thanks uh buddy!



i once tot that pat was the one..
well.. ppl do change.. ;)
even if we close till just like true sisters.
so? everything changed..
i knew that, we will never be like before..
we have our own friends now..
and diff world...
but.. memories stays ~
just hope that she's happy without me. ;)





now.. i tot i can treat that "SOMEONE" as true friend.
in the end?
well, things are over.
no point saying it anyway..
i only can say IM DAMN FUCKING WRONG TO TRUST YOU!
that's all i wanna tell you!
all this things happened..
i'll rem what you did to me.
thanks uh!!!
and.. things already done. cant be undone!
don't treat me good! cause i won't treat you nice anymore!!
And i finally know what is
LEAPORD WILL NEVER CHANGE IT SPOT!!!

#17 may - Sunday

well..
i QUIT my job again.
haas! think that's not a surprise to all of you!
hahaha!
lots of reason why i quit.
well.. only my true friends know why..
so.. i quit i quit i quit!

i really don't know how to answer to baby.
but thinks he will understand me.
he's the only one understand me most!
job hunting again! woohoos! ;)


oh ya. Buddy, i promised you.
when i take my pay for the next month.
im gonna give you a big TREAT!
rem? ahaa! :D
I WANT MEET YOU BUDDY!


seriously,
im enjoying working with you girls
( Qing Yu, Xue Yi, Stella, Hui Shan, Yue Shi, Bao Yu & Xuan Ning )
meet you girls soon alright!
keep in contact ok! :D



#16 may - Saturday

today is my last day!
woohoos! :D
make it the end of everything between the misunderstanding!
well.. it's all over!
i know your true colours already!
i seen everything clearly by my own eyes!
thanks for letting me know you are this kind of person!
HAHA!
never trust someone so much! i have learn this!
thanks for giving me a very good lesson in my life!
a lesson that makes me grow up!
i'll rem always! thanks uh!

#15 may- Friday

nothing much to post!
im not in the mood anyway!
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!






#14 may - Thursday

work work work..
hais.
so many things happen!
i dont feel like working anymore!
can anyone tell me what to do?!
just anyone! please!!!!






#12 may - Tuesday

not yet recover..
but i still went to work.
Qing yu keep laughing at my voice!
whenever i speak.
ARGH!!
so bad lar you!
my voice is MAN ok!
you want also don't have der ok! ;(






END!

DARLING,
I MISS YOU SO MUCH! ;(







我真的好想你!!!

挂念是最遥远的那盏灯 ..

# 9 MAY . Saturday..

firstly, congrates to laopo beeyen's baby full month.
laopo po, sorry ya!
im not feeling well. so i didn't go.
meet you soon alright? SORRY!

secondly, told lady boss that im not going to work tml.
will get a mc for her..
so sick.. hais.. ;(
wo hao xiang baby ohs!

lastly, went celebrate mother's day with family!
dinner at orchard shopping centre (sakura).
the foods there sucks! eeks!! all food are cold der!
even fried things are cold! imagine how er xin it is?!
and it's so fucking EX! ARGH!
and before i go off.
they said " thank you, come again "
i told them.
"you're welcome. i swear i'll never come here again!"



here some pics~




DA JIE, JIE FU & TONG


mommy & tong!






do we look alike? lols..

I LOVE MY MOMMY!!

MOMMY & ER GE ~

back homed!

let our sweety end this post with her sweetest smile!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMMY!

AND HAPPY MOTHER's DAY TO AH MA TOOS! :D

祝你们永远那么美丽!!

doctor tml morning!

have to rest early!

BYE~