23rd day without BABY *
i miss him so much. it's been 23rd day without him in my life? i still rem the 1st day without him was like nightmare. i couldn't sleep nor eat. i cant stop crying. where ever i go. i feels that he still around. he still be by my side. or either coming home soon. he wont leave me alone at home. he never do that to me before. he say before. where ever he go, he will bring me along. ='( hais. i miss you real much baby! i keep crying. i keep tell my mum i wan him back. when will he be back? whenever i walked near our bed and look at it. he's not there. the feeling was like he never come back. i know he wont be back so soon. hais. i don't even dare to sleep on that bed. it's remind me of him. i missing him badly! hais. till now days i went back to my bed and sleep. when ever i wake up. i really wish he's right in front of me. or beside me. hais. when ever i visit him. i feel like crying so much. i couldn't touch him. only can see through the tv. my mum told me. it's better that nothing. better than i cant see him. hais. i know that. but i really don get use to it. we been together for 1 year 5 month. he never ever leave me more than 14 days. 14 days is the most. 14 days at least we can talk to each other on phone. but now? none! it's already 23rd day. how can i live without him? can i go on 4years without him? or 18 months without him? i still cant get use to it till now. i can't! i miss him badly! hais. no one listen to my heart. no one there for me. no one hug me in the middle of the night. no one sing song "hong" wo orhorh. no one stand by my side whenever i feel sad. no one let me "fa pi qi" on and never talk back. always "ran" wo. ='( my heart so pain whenever i go visit him. but i cant do anything for him. i felt so hopeless. no one can help. why things will turn out this way? i really miss the years, months and days he spend with me. ='( next sat is our 1 year 6 month. we can't spend the time together. sometimes i really so "xie mu" other couple. they don't have to gone through all this. i know it's my life. i have to accept it. no matter how long i will wait for you. my heart always stays you! no one can ever replace you down deep inside baby. i love you!
i miss him so much. it's been 23rd day without him in my life? i still rem the 1st day without him was like nightmare. i couldn't sleep nor eat. i cant stop crying. where ever i go. i feels that he still around. he still be by my side. or either coming home soon. he wont leave me alone at home. he never do that to me before. he say before. where ever he go, he will bring me along. ='( hais. i miss you real much baby! i keep crying. i keep tell my mum i wan him back. when will he be back? whenever i walked near our bed and look at it. he's not there. the feeling was like he never come back. i know he wont be back so soon. hais. i don't even dare to sleep on that bed. it's remind me of him. i missing him badly! hais. till now days i went back to my bed and sleep. when ever i wake up. i really wish he's right in front of me. or beside me. hais. when ever i visit him. i feel like crying so much. i couldn't touch him. only can see through the tv. my mum told me. it's better that nothing. better than i cant see him. hais. i know that. but i really don get use to it. we been together for 1 year 5 month. he never ever leave me more than 14 days. 14 days is the most. 14 days at least we can talk to each other on phone. but now? none! it's already 23rd day. how can i live without him? can i go on 4years without him? or 18 months without him? i still cant get use to it till now. i can't! i miss him badly! hais. no one listen to my heart. no one there for me. no one hug me in the middle of the night. no one sing song "hong" wo orhorh. no one stand by my side whenever i feel sad. no one let me "fa pi qi" on and never talk back. always "ran" wo. ='( my heart so pain whenever i go visit him. but i cant do anything for him. i felt so hopeless. no one can help. why things will turn out this way? i really miss the years, months and days he spend with me. ='( next sat is our 1 year 6 month. we can't spend the time together. sometimes i really so "xie mu" other couple. they don't have to gone through all this. i know it's my life. i have to accept it. no matter how long i will wait for you. my heart always stays you! no one can ever replace you down deep inside baby. i love you!
baobei, this song is for you ❤
25th oct 20o8
12:59AM
Fennies NG 
