many things happened. but BB, i still wish that you're still beside me. you're still with me. alot of people told me. what's done is done. ya. i know that. but i still cant use to it. i still miss him as much as before. hais. sometimes patricia darling come and meet me. pei me. i know she's good. she just damn good. she told me that no one will be ever close as us. sometimes i was thinking is it true? everything changed. include us. im nort a boyfriend girl. but BB is the only one whose always there for me whenever i need him. he dotes me so much. i cried in his arms whenever i feel sad. he will hong wo. he know me best. he always put me in the first place. before himself. he know what i wan. what i asked for. im just sticking to him like he's the only one for me. ya! it's true. in my heart. he's the only one. no one can ever replace him.
as for sister? i really donno. ya. last time i have my sisters. those who know me best. and always there. but not any more. things makes us change. maybe im the one who felt that. it's doesn't matter to them anyway. sometimes i really wish that what patricia darling say was true. no one will ever as close as us. but do you still think it's possible? for me. i dunno. sometimes i just think that we can be like last time. but the feeling was like so weird. i dunno why. im not those got boyfriend forget about sisters. i still miss and rem them . do they? hais. i dunno. i kept it inside my heart. no one to tell to. only baby know it. even if i dont say it out.
maybe the problem lies on me. im the one still at the same point. not moving forward. everyone gonna left me behide.
iya. who cares! now what most important is wait for baby. and work hard to earn more money for him! =)
Fennies NG 
