Fennies ♥ Braian

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ME! :D

is it happy? hais. i dont think so. it's just a fucking day. but thanks to those bestie who send me birthday greeting! you girls are so sweet! sweeties than anything ok? i love ni men!
thanks to RUBBY (cousin) , KELLY (buddy), LYNETTE (sister), CHUNPING (baobei), BEEYEN (sister), VERON (sister). you girls are so sweet! thanks~

Morning, when to visit BABY. :D i miss him so much! he's so sweet. he bought psp for me. & perfume. :D although is i go buy myself. but it's using his money lar. baby, thanks for everything. he sing birthday song to me. i cried. and he still wrote letter for me. draw a small cake with 19 candles. ask me make a wish before i blow. so sweet. hais. how i wish he's right here with me. can i don wan all those present but just wan you back? hais. :'( it's the worst birthday that i ever hab! i miss you real much! :'(

afternoon when home watch tv. suddenly receive a private number. it's SHAWN (baby's cousin). he called me just to sing birthday song for me. so sweet of him! when he grow up sure very li hai to woo girls der. hahahas. :DD after that i when to bed. when iim not totally fall asleep. i heard my bro and sis saying about me.
here they goes--->
bro: where got ppl birthday never go out der?
sis: do you think your meimei got friends?
bro: ah girl (pat darling) lei?
sis: people got boyfriend liaos where will wan your mei? always is ah boy pei her der.
bro: ohs... dhen too bad lo.
and he went out.
i heard that. hais. feeling so down. and i miss him again.

around 3 plus. i went out. go MCYS for probation interview. i saw my dad under my blk. waiting for my mummy & sis they all. know what he do? he give me fucked up look. like i own him 1million. iya! fuck care lah! i walk off. after the interview, i went to amk hub meet KELLY (buddy) she's the sweeties one lar! she's the only one who meet me on my birthday! thanks babe! you're the best! :D after those shopping with her. when back yishun to meet my family. hais. and another fucked up things came. it's my birthday isn't it im the one should choose what to do, whad to eat? hais. and im not the one. is my dad! it's like his fucking own birthday! he never even think of me. and keep on giving me a fuck face! hais. whatever lar. without baby. no one can ever make my days happening! so just fuck it lar!

went watch movie after that! it's a treat from my brother in law. thanks vincent korkor!(jiefu) :D
after movie. went home. surprise! i saw one present outside my house door. it's from PAT (darling). so sweet of her. hais. but she didn't meet me. :'(

P.S: TO baby - baby, without you. my birthday just sucks! i hate it! hais. i miss you so much! i miss last year birthday! the bbq that you opened for me on my 18th birthday! hais. i miss the day you will still with me. i need you so much! no one understand how the worst birthday that i ever hab. only you! no one understand how sad i am. only you. you promise to return me a happy 19th birthday when you come out. i miss you baby! :'(

TO: KELLY (buddy) -
buddy, thanks for being there when i need someone. and thanks for acc me for my birthday. although im not happy for the day. but you already tried your best to make me happy. i apperciate it alots! thanks buddy. you're the best friend that i ever hab! thanks. you wont leave me alone when i cried, when i need someone. thanks! i love you buddy!

perfume & psp from baby